The dream is to travel, to get is shape while I still can, to be athletic before I get older and have more aches and pains. I have made a deal with my older self that if taking a year off at fifty makes me work longer before retirement, or not have some comforts when I am 85, that is ok with me.

I love to mountain bike, and I don’t feel a need to do harder trails or jump much higher off the ground. But I do want to go for longer rides before I get tired. I do want to feel less tired and sore after a good ride. I want to ride in all the mountains in all the climates and see all the scenery. I want to feel the strength in my body and the flow of being on the trail moving fast and dodging all the obstacles.

I want to reset my brain from the work-a-day world. Get out of the cycle of avoiding bed because that only means I have to get up and go to work. Out of the cycle of feeling constant fatigue and slow moving brain that comes from simply not getting enough sleep. I want out of the mindset that I have to work all the time without longer breaks to step back and get perspective on life and what makes it worth living.

I want to re-engage with my creative and spiritual selves. The selves I don’t have time or focus for when I’m in the mode of full or nearly full time work. Nature feeds these for me and I want to be mindfully out in it every day.

Feel free to skip the reading bits and just look at the picture posts. I hope to be finding my insights in the written parts and it may be of interest only to me.